Planting soil!

Rather than drag in 200 or more bags of soil we opted to have compost/planting mix delivered! After all we were planning to mound areas behind the brick retaining wall! When the soil was dumped into the drive-way I wanted to shout STOP! I thought that half of the load was enough and it probably would have been.

I don't own a wheelbarrow, well I didn't, so off to Home Depot to find one that would fit into the car. Who knew that wheelbarrows were so large? My friend isn't at his best assembling things so I stayed clear during the assembling process. It's a nice black one and I'm told it works quite well. But by the third day that no longer mattered! The bedding area had about as much soil as it could hold and we still had a large pile in the drive-way. The HOA frowns on leaving things for long periods of time in the drive-way so we carted 50 wheelbarrows full of soil to the side of the house where the darn stuff may spend the next decade! I certainly won't need planting soil for a long time! We put plastic drop cloths down under the pile. I need to cover the mound of soil to prevent it from blowing all over the place during one of the epic windstorms that strike without warning.

The worst thing about the soil, outside of nearly killing my friend, is how allergenic it is! I spent the entire day on Sunday in bed sleeping in an attempt to get over the effects! When I have an FM flare-up one of the symptoms is feeling like I have the worst case of flu in the world. I had to climb out of bed yesterday to take Stacy to for dialysis and to run errands. We were low on the essentials like bread and vegetables. Happily, today is a stay-at-home day!!! Dialysis again tomorrow and Friday and on Thursday mom and Stacy have their monthly doctor appointment. The appointment is at 10:30 but we'll be lucky if see the doctor before noon! I think that he starts off each day running behind and never catches up!

Mom isn't having a good day! She once again looks very lost and keeps asking me when the front gate will be installed. Hopefully this week!! Stacy's BP is on the rise and vertigo seems to be the main symptom I have today . . . I'm also fighting depression, nothing new . . .

"You create your own universe as you go along."

Winston Churchill

Okay, so I know that I'm stuck in the muck of depression because of my thoughts and or reactions to the health issues that the 3 of us have, but getting unstuck seems insurmountable when the energy levels are residing on the bottom of some imaginary hole. I also know that I can change my thoughts in an instant by focusing on something beautiful. My friend just phoned from Jackson, WY. He described the snow on the Tetons and the breathtaking sunrise he captured on film! What a gift! My friend is always optimistic and finds enjoyment in the simple things; no wonder I've been crazy about him for 24 years! Why he puts up with me is beyond comprehension.